Oh God. It's not me!

Actually I'm very sleepy right now, but I refuse to sleep, heard like a physco person? Wakakaka

Haizz... Having bad mood since I back from Taiwan,erm... To be corrected,there's something bothering me.

Today, I just realize there are 4 more statistic subject and fyp then I'm going to graduate! Huh! Wtf right? I like learn nothing from this 4 years, play I know la. Hahaha.. Well, I'm not blaming anyone  but I blame myself. I'm the one bought myself to here, my current situation. Bad result, know nothing, learn nothing, apply nothing, no competitive, aimless,

Huh... Am I really so bad??!!

Haizzzz.. Two and the half sem left. What can I do to fix this? 

Is it I not suit this field I not interested in these or because of I din't put my effort?

Is it I put my effort then I will love it and make it as my career? 

I'm wondering do these kind of questiong passing through your mind or not? 

Hahaha.. I wan some accompanies, I don't want be the only lost sheep? :P

Statistic, definitely it is a nice course, Great one. It is useful, it is on demand, it is special, it is a career which can made you feel you are different among others. 

But, not everyone has the talent in these, isn't? And this same goes to other career. 

Seriously, I feel that I can learn this well actually, hahaha! Sound arrogant? Lalala

Just, I din't appreciate the every learning opportunity. I din't grab the every learning chances. Well, 墮落 enuf?  I just like to enjoy life, play, talk, eat, travel. I wasted all time on these, I din't spend time on studies and 研究 them. 

The question is, why I will become like this???? TT 

This is not me!!! Erm, okay, i admit im a playful, enjoy life person. But at least last time I will make sure I learn and understand what should I know while playing!!!! 

Since when I so brainless???? Hahahaha!!! Argh, very upset.

Can you feel my upset????

I'm NOT sad because of I get  low result, I sad because of I din't know how to apply statistic after 3 years of learning , im just like 死读书 （and I really dont like this feeling!!!) and I just give up myself without a try! 

Ok, fml.

Argh!! I thougt after this I will have positive mind , who knows, it makes me more upset.

Ok, wtf. 

Im going to sleep now.

Anyway, I know I will be positive tmr! 

Lol, what a nonsense! Good night!!

Life should be like a rainbow. There are mixed of colours- mixed of feelings.