Argh...
Just feel like can't cheat myself anymore!!
I dislike my course arrr!!!!
Everytime feel like study for nothing!!!!
Can't see the point why I learn it!
Of course, for people who want to be a great Statistician it is very useful!
But for me! They're just no use at all !!
Even I can be a normal or basic statistician ,
I think a lot of the thing I learn now is not useful to me too!
And! I hate programming so much!!!
And statistician = programming
So??!! wth??!!!
I force myself and persuade myself to love my course,
to enjoy the process, to learn something useful, to love programming.
But! I just can't help!!!!
Not because of lecturer problem, or syllabus or interest problem!
Is just I can't see my future!
I really do love Math and Stat, I do!
But like does not mean I suit it!
isn't???!!!!!!
how long time I still need to withstand these???!!!
Everyday doing what I don't like and pointless thing!!!!
when can I get rid all of this??!!
study exam fyp study exam fyp!
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just feel that I shouldn't force myself anymore!!!
Be honest to myself!!!!
I want to be released! and do what I like or suit me!
Wait me! The real me.
