我爱你s

这十七年来

得到的很多

失去的也很多

但为什么

失去的痛比得到的笑来得更深刻？

若天要你走，你有权说不走吗？

失去的意义是什么呢？

Be honest to yourself

Argh...

Just feel like can't cheat myself anymore!!

I dislike my course arrr!!!!

Everytime feel like study for nothing!!!!

Can't see the point why I learn it!

Of course, for people who want to be  a great Statistician it is very useful!

But for me! They're just no use at all !!

Even I can be a normal or basic statistician ,

 I think a lot of the thing I learn now is not useful to me too!

And! I hate programming so much!!!

And statistician = programming

So??!! wth??!!!

I force myself and persuade myself to love my course,

to enjoy the process, to learn something useful, to love programming.

But! I just can't help!!!!

Not because of lecturer problem, or syllabus or interest problem!

Is just I can't see my future!

I really do love Math and Stat, I do!

But like does not mean I suit it!

isn't???!!!!!!

how long time I still need to withstand these???!!!

Everyday doing what I don't like and pointless thing!!!!

when can I get rid all of this??!!

study exam fyp study exam fyp!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just feel that I shouldn't force myself anymore!!!

Be honest to myself!!!!

I want to be released! and do what I like or suit me!

Wait me! The real me.

A playful month

Have been play and enjoy non stop for one months I guess!

Argh! 

What I'm feeling now is scare! haahahah!!

Erm.. Is like 心里不踏实。

 

Seem like just enjoy playing but do nothing else. 

Din't study well for tests

Din't do well in my fyp

Wardrobe and table in a mess.

Everything is not organise

Money use like water 

Argh...!!!

Feel like everything in a mess! 

I should clear up everything especially my mind! 

Ok! Tmr!!!