Be honest to yourself

Argh...

Just feel like can't cheat myself anymore!!

I dislike my course arrr!!!!

Everytime feel like study for nothing!!!!

Can't see the point why I learn it!

Of course, for people who want to be  a great Statistician it is very useful!

But for me! They're just no use at all !!

Even I can be a normal or basic statistician ,

 I think a lot of the thing I learn now is not useful to me too!

And! I hate programming so much!!!

And statistician = programming

So??!! wth??!!!

I force myself and persuade myself to love my course,

to enjoy the process, to learn something useful, to love programming.

But! I just can't help!!!!

Not because of lecturer problem, or syllabus or interest problem!

Is just I can't see my future!

I really do love Math and Stat, I do!

But like does not mean I suit it!

isn't???!!!!!!

how long time I still need to withstand these???!!!

Everyday doing what I don't like and pointless thing!!!!

when can I get rid all of this??!!

study exam fyp study exam fyp!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just feel that I shouldn't force myself anymore!!!

Be honest to myself!!!!

I want to be released! and do what I like or suit me!

Wait me! The real me.