Do you ever?

Do you ever hurt a person?
and after so long time or years, it still make you feel guilty.
Not guilty, it is 100x of guilty.

Seriously, the feeling of guilty is not good.
The feeling of hurting someone is bad, bad and bad.
I can't even use words to describe the feeling.

I know I know and I know what I did.
Sorry. I hurt someone so deep, so deep.
Sorry.

Your reaction tell me how much you hate, how much you hurt, how much you wish to erase the past I give you. Until you block me from your blog your FB.
I know you don't wish to see anything regarding me, you don't wish to know anything regarding me.

My caring, my concern, my sorry, my greeting, my wishes are like a  hurt or even a CRIME to you.
Anyhow, I just want to know you are doing fine.
Or maybe now I don't even have the right to know either.

I know, I can't change your mind.
I can't force you to forgive me, I can't force you to be friend with me again.
What I can do is just respect your decision.
If you think this is the best for us, I will do it for you without questioning.
Maybe, this is the last good thing I can do for you.

I really wish every good thing will goes to you.
I hope in one day when we meet on a street, we still have the courage to say Hi and ask a simple How Are You......

Anyway, I will not try to escape from the guilty  feeling, I will let the guilty follow me years by years.
Maybe my heart will feel better by this way. Isn't?